loud.

...and in between work I gather my thoughts on things I could write about, I'm full of thoughts that hasn't been written in those times that I drowned myself with work...If you happen to want to visit India next year and land on the New Delhi International Airport, (Indira Gandhi International Airport) just think of the times I missed writing my life out! I swear this beautiful project wants to kill me by taking most of my time in a day just trying to make every square and lines, right. *sigh* It is trying to put me down and is winning actually...It's a very jealous project, it wont make me do grocery, laundry and quality time with the hubby. I'm stucked with a beautiful project that wont let me breathe, it even comes into my dream at night...India, i love you! You will get your airport on time and we wont charge you with our medical bills, stay put and relax! i love curry and the Taj Majal.
ack! I need a Paramore music to get me going, I need those loud, loud, loudness! Where's my metallica, I'm sure to have it somewhere! I'm dead tired. I aged in 2 weeks that I'm with the project! haha... yup, just two weeks and it's enough to make me want to re-think my life choices and career path! I love you, I hate you and I love you over again... but oftentimes, it's just hating the schedule but loving the project. Time is so cruel, why wont it drag itself when you need more of it?! I have "NEW MOON" to watch tomorrow at a semi-private theater where it is cozy and only 30-50 people are to watch... where are my tickets!!!! I don't have them yet and the premiere is tomorrow, my life is officially not happening for me at the moment...I'm running on auto-pilot mode again. Not thinking, just doing. I'm here but I'm really gone. I don't even know what the city looks like when there's still sun, I come to work in a sweater and slippers! No one cares, no one sees me anymore...but the good thing is: The GIANT Christmas tree down the road has been lit and I have it all to myself to enjoy, being out at the wee hours! No one else is there to stare up at it like it's the first time I've seen a decorated tree! It's a tree full of little colorful stars and a choir of angels at the bottom... it's Christmas! darn it, I don't have my camera with me but I will take photos for you, promise! ... and I wont, wont fail to mention that when you walk around, all tree trunks are wrapped in green and red ribbon. Big trees, small trees they are all wrapped-and I mean FULLY wrapped at the trunk while sparkly gold ribbons with shiny red and gold christmas balls droop on their branches. It's magical, it's like an enchanted forest when you walk into a section of landscaped trees and the Christmas balls where like teasing you to pluck them out! I don't know if others think of it that way, but I do want to pluck them out, it's too cute!

I'll let you know if I have any success plucking one out without getting arrested.