thanks life.

That's what I've been coaching myself to think, "get a life!" DO NOT DROWSE! It's my first day at work since I have been hospitalized for bleeding myself to almost dry that I had to be a vampire by a needle to survive. I'm wobbly that's why the husband is like a "stage dad" watching my every move and asking if I'm okay every 10 mins...oh he cares a lot right now, I've given him such a scare. I wont DIE, not yet at least I have to make it to my birthday this Friday and my wish is to live a longer happy life. ^^ Well these things happen, at least our marriage is tested for what we vowed for "in sickness and in health" ... we're just not ready for the next phrase the "till death do us part" part, that's why we said "until we both shall live" in our marriage vows and not the latter because it sounded better... I mean, the moment seems perfect to say that I will stay married to him even in death...nice eh?! ^^
Well now, I just wish for a mind reader that directly feeds into my blog as I have been wanting to write but the trouble is time and my ability to write in the midst of daze and tubes...but I'm well now, I'm at work proof that I have survived stubborness and not taking care of myself... hit the gym! hit the gym! I swear I said that many times in my hospital bed that I will go back to lifting those weights and sweating it all out! whew. stubborn. sassy. me. next year promise, 2010!
Anyway, lets head off to my hometown where we'll be in a few days to spend the holidays and like my oldest friend LIFE isn't giving me any normalcy... I just want a holiday and there goes Mt. Mayon spewing ashes and lava, tremors and all that volcanic erruption thing, I could see Mt. Mayon from our backyard!!! Well...it's hard not to see Mt. Mayon anywhere in my city...it's as majestic as you think it is...how you would draw a volcano when you are told to do so is how it looks...triangle in 2D, perfect cone in 3D, perfect circle on top view!!! Lovely and WILD! She's our muse, she's beautiful but dangerrrrrous. We never blame her for any destruction, oftentimes people are lured to stay close in awe of her beauty. What can you do about the forces of nature? It doesn't choose a time, if it has to fill our land with more land, what can you do??? Boulders would shoot up in the air like it has no weight but the sizes of which ranges from a refrigerator to as big as a house!!! Such a spectacle from afar. I have my fondest memories of Mt. Mayon's erruption in my head and it includes barbercue at the park with binoculars! If you happen to have lived in Legazpi City where Mayon is you will understand its BEAUTY and SHIFTING TEMPER like a true woman it is hardly predictable but unassumingly charming. So yes, even if the news says people are evacuated and will probably stay at the evacuation centers 'till Christmas, Christmas will still happen! Nothing can stop it! For as long as everyone keeps a distance, Mayon erruptions will stay as a spectacle rather than a calamity, it's brialliant to watch how it glows bright red in the dark, really I tell you it's eerily wonderful...there's some hint of delight in danger... I'm out of my mind, don't listen to me, I'm under medication so bear with me will ya? :) OUT.

sick and fine.

...and I thought I'd make a really cool come back and be starting my post with something really awesome after I've been gone and excused myself for a while for I had gotten myself stuck with loads of work to do...Anyway, this isn't a COOL come back at all, I'm at home and had just woken up, rested but if I may tell you why I'm at home instead of laboring myself out into the world... I got sick. Terrible, terrible of me to let it all happen, WOMEN of the world LISTEN, drink your IRON supplement, never let it pass especially when you got your "time of the month" -- I was too proud to think I'm fine and could do lots of overtime work and sleeping late! Yeah my head thinks so but my body just gave in one day. I couldn't get up, I couldn't breathe and couldn't eat, that's how bad it was for me last Wednesday. I woke up and felt queasy, thought I'd just give it a day's rest as my husband went on to prepare for work, if I had not tried to get up from bed to make breakfast I wouldn't realize I'm already too weak to stand, it feels awful that my mind was so stubborn it had to make me try getting up thrice leaving me gasping for air and was very thirsty. The mind is powerful, it says whatever you want to hear but your body can never lie especially when you're bound to be in danger.

I knocked at the bathroom door where my husband was with very slight energy, I was too weak to knock an alarming knock I was afraid he won't hear it from the shower trickling so loudly so I tried exerting an effort to shout out loud "we need to go to the hospital!"

My husband found me seating at the edge of the bed leaning against the wall, I was conscious enough not to fall anywhere else but the bed or else I might hit my head. I really thought I'd die, there's no excuse for taking all the signs and symptoms for granted, a simple case of a "months" period would've killed me!

We reached the hospital at 7:30 am, they ran sorts of test on me and told me that I'm suffering from severe Anemia and needs a blood transfusion, later that night I had a bag of blood hanging above me, I instantly felt warm and better, my husband took care of everything and he was very thankful that blood transfusion is possible, thanks to whoever invented it! Husband was a donor in September he never thought that I'd receive be needing a bag of blood one day...it's the best gift... My birthday is next Friday I'm glad to be alive!

Lesson, do not let yourself get caught in something you think you know everything about..."Life is full of surprises" and not all are FUN.