Uh-oh.

It's not always rainbows and butterflies sometimes it's a smog and a weasel. Depends on how ironic life can be everyday. That you want things done but can't see the end of it. I got loads of projects in mind, I wanna do crochet, I wanna repaint our bedroom, I wanna have pictures printed, I wanna do boxing... I wanna sign up for marathons, but all these will have to wait until my daily routine of work and housework would allow me for all that. Anyway, I made such a ruckus on facebook after I posted a status that says: "had a breastfeeding lecture" ... Everyone I know were ecstatic and left such wonderful comments, thanking God for such a miracle of a baby. Say what??? Who says were expecting? The assuming minds and reading between the lines could lead to trouble, sometimes we just need to see things as it is or in this case, read things as it is. I just listened to a friend sharing her breastfeeding experience, what gives that I'm pregnant? :) Anyway, it's still nice to see who cares and prays with us to have one, and for sure when it's really happening, they're more than happy with the news I'm gonna have to deactivate my facebook account cuz I'd be so overwhelmed with the responses I'm going to be so stressed! Hehe. I had all that figured out! :D

Love,

Sassy

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Randomness is pretty.

Once done stoking the fire till it chokes, I should be well moving on, but the good vibes aren't chanting my song...I want to hear it tell me the certain and not just the thrills of a new beginning. I want it to tell me that everything I planned and hoped for will come true. Uhm...yeah, I'm mad to say I want and I want things definite right now, I don't want second guessing things and get stuck in the middle. Look I'm 29 I should have lessened my growing up years by half! But seems like I plan to live up to 200 that I've got lots of growing up to do and I'm nowhere near adulthood!!! How am I supposed to become a mom when I need a mom myself!!!! Ugh... Mom? Don't do the wide grin, I know you want me to be 5 forever but... Hey I got a wonderful husband that needs me to be 29 :) he's 30 and he's old, lucky me he's old. I get fed and the household budget is safe. I'm just for the floor mopping and ironing clothes, and the dishes but the rest including the laundry is a "take-turns" duty... I can't be left alone or I'll starve!!! .... Ok now thats a lie! KFC has a number for a reason such as me and people like me...

Anyway stop grinning at back of your heads and feel sorry for me now. Oh haha. Nah, kidding. I'll survive and can brave it all. I just want people around and make them feel needed, if mom wants to show me how to mend our burnt shirts from all the ironing I did, I let her... She's a mom, we need moms! She knows all things. She never runs out of money and her budget is always good... How does she do it, I don't know. She always smell nice and keeps her face moisturized! I used to watch her when I was young how she does her face and put on her lipstick... Even at times when she's just going to do the laundry, she's powdered and cologned! Classic.

How come I just do laundry straight out of bed! Oooow! Are you supposed to know that?

Anyway friends, I'm always out of the box, never seem to be in sync with anything, but that's okay, sometimes the randomness makes it all pretty, so yes... Even if I don't know what's ahead I'm counting on sheer guts and your prayers :)

Love from here,

Sassy


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yes.

                                   

'need i say more? happy August everyone! may this month be the one you're waiting for... I do would love a salary increase for a boxing training...say whut? :) oh sassy...says whatever.

me, passionate.

I have a sick sense of humor and yes sometimes I get annoying but most of the time I'm just the one friend you might want to stay when things go a little too quiet for you, or when things get a bit too busy. we can chill, relax and just be laid back. I can do laid back, perhaps I've been laying back for so long now that I don't ever wanna go to work tomorrow, my mind is constantly just resting, it doesn't wanna do what it's supposed to do anymore ... clad those skyscrapers. I've been telling you this my friend for quite sometime now, we've been up and down this whole passion and work thing that you probably just want to smack me in the head for still doing what I do if I hate it so much then why?! :)

these teenage kids

                        "They laugh because I'm different, I laugh because they're all the same :)"

I read this somewhere, on a kid's blog actually... 14 is still a kid, I don't want them to grow old ever! These kids are so smart now you can't tell them a thing, but hey look at what one of them got for a quote. I like it.

When I was 14 (here we go...like how my mom tells it) ... I wasn't into boys yet, (that's how my mom tells it ...) ugh, yes, I was into boys, crushing on nerds and the quiet types, I wasn't into athletes ... I was more drawn to boys who were quiet and lanky...I mean tall and lanky, no muscles, no rock bands and no gangs. Though of course they were always the good looking ones, I just never thought of dating one... OR I wasn't asked to date one. Haha. I was tall and boyish, I was never the queen of anything, I was with big hair and crooked teeth that my friends now gasp in seeing me like I had a head transplant or something sooo dramatic they wouldn't believe I am ME. Of course I'm ME. I just went to a really good dentist and got these really expensive veneers and I now use a shampoo that I chose and not what's in the house for the whole family to use back then :)

But all the while when I was a teen, I never thought I wasn't cool. Though there were times that I wish I was more popular or prettier, I wasn't into that by the time I was 14 I've made really good friends that are like my sisters up to now. But I also had a time when I didn't know who I was and what I'd be in school without a group to be with, I was 13 and had to literally work my way up to be friends with these pretty, popular girls, doing crazy, stupid things like powdering my nose every 4 seconds ... and doing their projects. I was such a loser at that time when I wanted to be friends with these people who aren't even that nice to me. Who'd date the boy I like just to prove that they could have what they want and I can't. sucks right? ... But a year later, I met new friends... I wasn't all that popular but I wasn't slacking in school. I got into art, into sports, into music, into the school paper ... the works. I was a geek, but we don't care. We were having so much fun being together, that we knew we'd be friends FOREVER and that we are.

I think that today's kids are really smart, they know what they want and they'll do it. I'm 29 now and what I did when I was 14 made me who I am... I still don't think I'm all that BIG deal, but I know I'm grounded, I know where my values are and I know what kind of choices to make. We all learn that while we were young, while we were easily forgiven for a mistake ...It's way different now, you make a mistake, you pay for it really gooood. People don't forget easily when you're a grown up making all these bad choices. They will tear you up, they will give you sleepless nights, they will never forget and everything will seem different. How I wish we could all be resilient like kids...We make a mistake and then we try to forgive and be friends again. BUT then, make sure the mistake isn't intentional because that's not the same.

I want us all to be fair to each other, to be loving and giving. I don't care if you're pretty or popular or if you're rich, I have no issues with that SINCE I WAS 14, I've seen enough of that... you can be all that flashy but tell me what you really are and I'll tell you if you're worth it.

Have a good day bloggies!

with much love,

Sassy

hello I missed you

hi it's been a while. I've been off the circuit but I'm alive and there isn't a day that I haven't thought of you, how you are, what I missed, anyone who's been down and up again while I was gone, I'm sorry I really wished I was there to cheer you up, though I know blogger has plenty good people who wouldn't leave you as I have. Sorry... I wasn't there to make comments though you know sassy would always mean well. I missed you all and I hope I wouldn't hit a writer's block again cuz it did hurt to see other people hitting it off like writing is an unseen limb that functions naturally. I'm just ordinary, with ordinary stories, with ordinary life... Nothing so special except that I know how buildings are built and how boring they make my life done over and over! I wish I was into music or theater acting for which I can make excuses for my temper and mood swings... Artist. That's who I want to be but I don't know what I'm doing...why I'm doing what I'm doing and still gonna do it tomorrow. I want to live my dreams if you know what I mean... And my dreams aren't even realistic. Anyway, let's not go to that... I missed talking to you like an old friend, we don't know how long we've been apart but we sure to pick up where we left... I'm sorry again, I will be a good friend and not go missing and probably make you wonder where I was and what was I doing, because that's what friends do, checking on each other,well ... I'm okay, I have been away from blogging but life went on, I was normal... uhm...
Somehow normal, with my husband always great and perfect... We are trying to be parents oh yeah that's a great news! We are wanting to be parents, so bad.

But you know were still leaving it all to GOD's will. We can be parents in many other ways. If were not blessed with our own maybe our purpose is to make other kids our own... They need parents too you know. Some couples are put to that purpose I hope realization hits them.

Anyway. Glad to see you all again! Take care. I will be hopping around to see how's everyone doing :)

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