Damaged

Ok. So I've been obsessed of how things will turn out between the Philippines vs. Chip Tsao ... remember the guy who blatantly discriminated Filipinos in a Hong Kong Magazine? ...ahhh ... very fresh memories, in fact it may never fizzle out of my memory, ever! ... I know, I should just get over it, what is said is said, the damage has been done and it is leaving a scar. A reminder perhaps that no matter what, we are in defense of our race. Which is so sad to note that within this century ... for heaven's sake we have not learned anything from the past at all, we are just going around and around this whole racism crap! I am 28 and at 28, I know better than to categorize myself as a lower being just for my skin color or for which THIRD WORLD COUNTRY I come from. I know for a fact that in this life WE CAN NEVER FAIL AS A RACE OR A GENERATION, WE CAN ONLY FAIL OURSELVES AS HUMANS!!!

And this, isn't the first time that Filipinos had been insulted in media ... there are a lot of times far more worse than Chip Tsao's article. Oh I know all of them ... one is even written by our own citizen for which of course again we had to "defend" ourselves. Over and over again we had to. Why bother? Because it HURTS. For no other reason, it just HURTS that people wouldn't care of leaving you the least bit of dignity. All the more that they have the power to broadcast! It makes you want to hate back. It makes you want to discriminate too ... afterall, if they HATE you, why would you want their LOVE anyway? Most of these discriminating people are the ones who doesn't even give a damn, so how dare of them to think they are better? How dare in their ignorance are they better?! If they were Saints and has given themselves to the need of the world and had mocked us for any wrong doing, then maybe I would listen and be ashamed of myself. BUT for Chip Tsao? or the racist others? ...

hmmnnn ... this isn't going to end is it? Not in our lifetime.

Well, this is my last bout against Chip Tsao ... (for now) all he has to do is to make another "apology" a good one ...he'd better try again because he gave us a really lame one. It wasn't even an apology, it was an excuse. He thinks he can fool us with using the word "servants" in another context like "public servant" or "God's servant" as if he had meant the same when he called our country the "Nation of Servants." tsk. tsk. what a guy!

I can't even believe this whole racist issue had sprung from the "Who owns the Spratly Islands?" WHHAAATTT? Geography Mr. Tsao. Geography. I bet you can't pull the islands closer to where you stand that's why you just had to hit below the belt!

aaarrrggghhhh... make me stop! (deep breath)

OK. so at least I had it all out, that's what heartaches need. Loads of time to write! hehe and it'll be all gone! I have nothing against the Chinese people though. I have friends who are Chinese, one of my bestfriends is marrying a Chinese guy pretty soon, 'tell you again ... we cannot fail as a race, only as humans ... so, Chip Tsao and his publishers owes it to us. We deserve a sincere apology and not explanations.

Skyscrapers, Vacation and a Movie.

Good morning! I've been missing in action for a day, well... haven't got a thought or something that would really define what my day was yesterday ... it was all but work! Things are finally revving up as proposed projects are coming in ... I've never been too excited to have more skyscrapers built anywhere in the world, I usually just take it as work! But now, it does say something in my life, afterall, this is where I get all my spending power from!

Anyway, until we have the plans and instructions in our hands we will be waiting BUT for now! yeah! now is even better! We got a long vacation next week for the Lent, more popular here as the "Holy Week", I know ... time for fasting and reflection, maybe for the last 3 days of Holy Week, I'll do just that.

Today? we watched a movie with friends, Monsters vs. Aliens ... yeah kidstuff! But you know, it's nice to laugh and be entertained without having to decipher whatever the movie is all about after a long day?! It's just pure entertainment, no headaches and what if's.

hmmnn... so that's what I did for those times, we ended this day with ice cream (yum!) @ Haagen Dasz, superb!

Lots and Loaded

Ever had a day when it started like you wanna blog already and not go to work?!haha...well, I had that feeling this morning and as my left foot stepped right out the door ... my husband had to "sort-of" drag my other foot out! funny. So what's the issue all about? arrgghhh ... just some guy slurring racist comments against Filipinos in an article he wrote for a Hong Kong Magazine ... god! wont these people ever stop?! I mean what did we do? Just because were poor? Is that it? and as if these people feeds the entire country for free! ... hmmn.. that really made me so upset but I wasn't alone, in fact it made the whole country upset. Imagine the impact of words on others ... tsk.tsk. if it's just for publicity, that this guy (Chip Tsao) wanted, why on earth would he rant about the Filipino Domestic Helpers?! tsk. tsk. this guy is crazy! To pick on his house helper about the Spratly Islands! Why? What is wrong with being a house help anyway? It's a job. It's not like corruption in the government!

hmmn ... well, I just don't get it why ... Filipinos have always been hospitable and friendly to foreigners, especially to the Chinese people, who even have their own community here, the "Chinatown" in Binondo where their businesses have flourished through Filipino consumers, their kids attended our schools, they've built their houses in our lands ... arrgghhh!!! Now, I just wanna shake off the idea that "Tourism" is good ...

Earth Hour: World Record: Philippines

What a great news! For an environment-saving cause, we got the world record for participating the most in switching off our lights in response to the call for an hour of energy saving.

Well, if we at home had to do it, maybe it was big deal, maybe it was indeed on to set a record! As for me, I just thought it's an event that I wouldn't miss or like a birthday that I had to text my friends about to remind them that it's time to turn their lights off with a smiley in the end. Only to get a response from one of them that they already had their lights off and that my watch is like 50 seconds late!!! ^0^

And so it was an event that we had known from friends of friends, from concerts held using solar panels for energy, shirts printed and worn around by anyone, billboards everywhere, TV ads ... even church bells were rang! So, the intention was there, and ... though I noticed from the next door that they had switched off their lights early thus turning it on early too ... that I being soooo observant and excited about this whole lights-off thing whispered to my husband that they were Earth Hour-ing at the wrong hour! tsk.tsk. hehe (i was just making him laugh...)

Anyway, this is a moment of unexpected pride! We hope that more and more people will consider it as an event like New Years or something ... an hour wouldn't hurt anyway if given for the environment.

broke but happy

It's in my vow, I know through thick and thin, in sickness and in health ... etc. etc. so? NO question, I'm here, he's here and together we will sort things out, you'll see.

We're broke after paying off our bills, loans and the 10% we have to set aside from our salaries monthly, which we can never, ever touch because it's an investment to a fund-loan program in the office, we can only claim it by the end of the year with interest unless we pull out our share ... Sooo... yeah were broke like the word itself we're trying hard to make ends meet... and today we ate a take-out lunch and had to share on one dessert. I guess this too happens to any other regular couple who's just starting off. What amazes me, is the "coolness" on how we are handling this ... when did I ever become so calm about money issues? I guess when you're married, everything you have, you have to share and while we lie in bed this afternoon thinking of what dinner would be, a thought came to me ... isn't it better to have someone when you don't have money, than to have no one and still have no money? hehe .. I mean, I've lived alone once, when I was just making it in the BIG city and hardly had anything ... it was lonelier. But now that I have someone, it seemed not to matter!

By the way, not to worry when you're in need in the Philippines ... neighbors are always there. Not that we asked or anything, but this is graduation month ... and uhmm... it means there are celebrations everywhere of proud families! So? So, our neighbor happened to drop by with spaghetti. Oh! were delighted. It's an added blessing!

But by Tuesday, this "ordeal" is over. We're expecting money from our monthly pay and some more from our small time cologne retail business ... so ... it would be better days once more. But I'm glad to have had this experience, because I know at this very early stage in our married life, there'll be tough times ahead and for sure we will know how to survive them!

karaoke fever

Nope no need to call the police! ... it's just me singing. Well, it's a beautiful, sunny day at last after 2 days of drizzles that I thought summer's over before I could enjoy it! BUT, now it really is SUMMER!!! weehee! ... so what's up with the singing? ... uhmmm ... I know, that's why I stopped before the weather turns ugly... ^0^ well, my husband after breakfast went online to show me this website that he signed up to, where he recorded his own voice, singing to "old" music ... yep, he's into that "oldies" music thing. Anyway, he showed me how it works, it's an online karaoke where you could record your song and store it in a playlist sort of way, you can either post it publicly or privately ... by going public, people could rate you ... uhmm ... not my kind of stuff! I don't really sing, I just do it for fun and whenever the "chance" arises! ...and so my husband made me choose a song for which I chose a Norah Jones song "Don't Know Why" (my fave) ... and sang it! ... I did have pitch issues and uhmm... pauses. But heck! I'm actually enjoying it! haha... I went on to recording a few other ones, which I'm not too proud of! haha ... my husband thinks it's funny that I "didn't" like the idea but has actually recorded a couple of songs! silly me!!!

Anyway, try it out. It's fun! www.simsonstage.com (yikes! is my singing that bad that they had to close down this site?!) ^0^

fave gadget.

For this post, I have to close my eyes and feel the keys of my laptop ... hmmnn... summoning all the inspiration that could make my blog the coolest! haha ... nah! I was just feeling the keys, cuz I forgot how they feel ... not that you should but I just wanted to remember when and why I got this baby... I had too, I mean I watch movies in it, keep pictures, burn cds, store music... this is a piece of investment.

I got it from my very first trip to the US, customized for me by HP with swirls and wave designs as permanent skin, yep! I dont have to buy those skins to make my lappy look different and cool, mine is already how I want it to look like. ^_^ ... with specs that I also chose with the help of my "computer" savvy friends. I think next to the cellphone, my laptop is second for the most important gadget of my life!

mmmm....Anyway, my day went fine though this morning I wasn't sure how things are gonna be, knowing that I had a deadline at work ... a very crucial, very detailed fabrication drawings of glass and aluminum panels for a skyscraper in New Jersey. I've been praying for all God's favor to come my way and ... Viola! not only that my schedule was moved, we had an office meeting the whole afternoon ... hmmnn... there is miracle!