Damaged

Ok. So I've been obsessed of how things will turn out between the Philippines vs. Chip Tsao ... remember the guy who blatantly discriminated Filipinos in a Hong Kong Magazine? ...ahhh ... very fresh memories, in fact it may never fizzle out of my memory, ever! ... I know, I should just get over it, what is said is said, the damage has been done and it is leaving a scar. A reminder perhaps that no matter what, we are in defense of our race. Which is so sad to note that within this century ... for heaven's sake we have not learned anything from the past at all, we are just going around and around this whole racism crap! I am 28 and at 28, I know better than to categorize myself as a lower being just for my skin color or for which THIRD WORLD COUNTRY I come from. I know for a fact that in this life WE CAN NEVER FAIL AS A RACE OR A GENERATION, WE CAN ONLY FAIL OURSELVES AS HUMANS!!!

And this, isn't the first time that Filipinos had been insulted in media ... there are a lot of times far more worse than Chip Tsao's article. Oh I know all of them ... one is even written by our own citizen for which of course again we had to "defend" ourselves. Over and over again we had to. Why bother? Because it HURTS. For no other reason, it just HURTS that people wouldn't care of leaving you the least bit of dignity. All the more that they have the power to broadcast! It makes you want to hate back. It makes you want to discriminate too ... afterall, if they HATE you, why would you want their LOVE anyway? Most of these discriminating people are the ones who doesn't even give a damn, so how dare of them to think they are better? How dare in their ignorance are they better?! If they were Saints and has given themselves to the need of the world and had mocked us for any wrong doing, then maybe I would listen and be ashamed of myself. BUT for Chip Tsao? or the racist others? ...

hmmnnn ... this isn't going to end is it? Not in our lifetime.

Well, this is my last bout against Chip Tsao ... (for now) all he has to do is to make another "apology" a good one ...he'd better try again because he gave us a really lame one. It wasn't even an apology, it was an excuse. He thinks he can fool us with using the word "servants" in another context like "public servant" or "God's servant" as if he had meant the same when he called our country the "Nation of Servants." tsk. tsk. what a guy!

I can't even believe this whole racist issue had sprung from the "Who owns the Spratly Islands?" WHHAAATTT? Geography Mr. Tsao. Geography. I bet you can't pull the islands closer to where you stand that's why you just had to hit below the belt!

aaarrrggghhhh... make me stop! (deep breath)

OK. so at least I had it all out, that's what heartaches need. Loads of time to write! hehe and it'll be all gone! I have nothing against the Chinese people though. I have friends who are Chinese, one of my bestfriends is marrying a Chinese guy pretty soon, 'tell you again ... we cannot fail as a race, only as humans ... so, Chip Tsao and his publishers owes it to us. We deserve a sincere apology and not explanations.