Change.

Well, things are slowly healing ... I'm not forcing it though. BUT I wanted healing so bad right now ... that I want to see myself and Ramil to be like we were. All these thoughts that I've kept for days are hardly coming out into words ... I guess that's just the way it is when you grieve.

BUT enough! I say it's enough. You know ... when you are faced with mortality, you get scared, it's normal to be scared, it's normal to feel as though you want time to stand still ... never age, never change, never die.

BUT it's life. "You just make the most out of it" ...

For sure, we will all move on ... for sure we will be moving on! The world is waiting... and like my "old" self, I will be optimistic, I will be living and loving life as it is precious and fragile.

I have friends, I have my parents, I have Ramil ... and this is the last time I will write about SADNESS.