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you can rarely find me in a melancholic mood if you do don't count on it to last long. I need to see a Therapist or something, I might be going crazy...I'm bored to death with my routine of work, running and facebook, of course this isn't a world issue but if anyone can tell me what this is, help! I'm always hyper, always in a bright sun shiny mood but deep inside i know I needed to feel some pain, some hurt whenever someone or something upsets me I should at least feel off about it when someone has done something wrong to me but then I don't. I keep some little grudge for a very short while then i just move on and laugh at the ironies. I know being optimistic is good but I'm afraid of not being able to feel. really feel. And I miss it. I miss being able to slow down and feel things around me, I want to take things little at a time and get to know it better. I'm constantly learning and moving which is good but I know I lose some sense of meaning to what I do because I'm always rushing which is also what my world is all about, being quick, motivated and decisive.

Stop. Turn and Smile. Maybe a smile is going to be more meaningful than a laugh that I readily give when something good or bad happens I can easily laugh at myself but maybe... If I walk slow each pace would mean a thing, maybe if I listen and not "auto" respond to a text message maybe I will be able to understand (uhm... Okay, nobody can read emotions through text) so that's a joke. Maybe if I slow down, just slow down... Breathe. Feel and look in the eyes of people who talks to me, maybe I won't have to see a therapist, maybe I'll get some answers, maybe I will be alright and am not really crazy.