BIG GIRLS DON"T CRY....they wail!

ok no more patronizing looks, I'm fine. It's not enough that I wasn't invited for the site visit yesterday that I'm not invited too for the meeting this morning. I'm soooo not liking this. I will charge them with sexual discrimination eventually, if the reason why I can't go to the site is because I'm a WOMAN and my boss doesn't want those stares when I walk in. That really makes me mad now ... I didn't make those drawings so others could read them for me, I am a MATCH for these guys and they just wont let me get the same opportunity just because I'm a GIRL??? WTF. Well, that's how far I'm reading it ... for as long as I've been working in this industry that they always give me the "girly" things to do whenever there's a choice between a technical drawing and typing on an excel file, they'd give me the "typing" on the excel file and the guy who's in level with me gets the drawing ... why??? just because I'm a GIRL???!!! I don't want "comforts!" if it means that I wont be able to prove myself. I'm not perfect, I'm not the best ... but don't magnify my mistakes just because "again" I'm a GIRL! and they don't expect us to be technical! WOW. 5 years in the Design and Engineering Department, I've been to Italy, the US and Thailand doing what I do (technical stuff) and here? Now? this comes up?!!! Why??? oh why???!!! I'm not perfect, I'm not the best, but I'm NOT STUPID, I know what you're trying to do ... but I won't let you!

goodbyes are not all SAD!

'Much that I want to be around and take care of my followers and be as friendly as possible without having to BLOCK one ... I just did and I'm not sorry! This is not a "for adults only" site, this is for the lovers of life, for genuine, talented people!!! ... I'd like to have followers but if you will put up naked photos of yourself or anyone else in your avatar as it appears on my wall, you're OUT! ... and I mean OUT!!!

woman in yellow

I'm not into politics but I do know when the government is doing bad or good, as basic as that and since I'm now among those who are in the "work force" and not living by my parents allowance and diligently pays taxes, I take a direct hit when they do stupid-fishy things like stealing and deceit. Yeah well. Who among you can attest that your government is 100% percent clean with excellent service record? Nobody.



But there was a time in our history when we had a glorious moment. As momentous as Obama winning it with his CHANGE slogan. It was a moment when a former school teacher and a plain housewife was thrust into politics to take the country's topmost political rank, as President of the Republic of the Philippines. I was only 6 years old then and in Grade 1 ... what do I know? ... what will be my memoirs of her and the 1986 EDSA People Power Revolution that ousted Ferdinand Marcos and his wife Imelda Marcos from power?



Well, that moment went down to history and watched on TV specials from time to time, her husband the late Ninoy Aquino who was slain at the tarmac of then Manila International Airport in 1983 is a National Hero. I sure know that the Democracy we are enjoying today is because of his ideals and his wife following in his footsteps. She was a grieving widow, she has told her children that their father has given his life for the country and she now understands why by the words of her late husband, "The Filipino is worth dying for" she must take the lead.



The world watched when the young widow came to power, a woman leader. The world was inspired by the people for it's peaceful uprising, when the government of 1986 sent tanks and soldiers, the people brought flowers and food. It was a miracle of miracles that brought the country together in peace, with one voice and prayer. That change should come to the Philippines and it will start with a president elected by the people, who is Cory Aquino.

A woman of simplicity, of prayer and truth, of grace and composure, ... Her campaign color was yellow, she was sworn in as the President of the Republic in a simple yellow dress and is seen most of the time in yellow. Yellow is her color.

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Today August 1, 2009, the La Salle Greenhills gymnasium is filled with people in line and in waiting for her. As she finally arrives, there was a loud, roaring applause as yellow confetti was showered upon her just like it did at the Makati Business Center on her vistory parade...

But this time, she is watching it from heaven. She is gone. The mother of our Democracy is gone ... pictures, videos, news about her, came to light once more that beyond the mourning, we are to realize that her life was well lived, in fact "best" lived for any human in this world.

She will live on, in all of our hearts and with that we are sure that her role in history is safely guarded.

Going under the knife. If only I'm a getting nose job!

'was out yesterday and again went to the Doctor. This time I got ECG in prep for the "tissue extraction" I'm undergoing for biopsy... it's just a minor surgery as my Doc said... but 'ya know, hearing the word surgery is like "whoa!" whether it's minor or major or whatever key it is ... uhmm ... haha.

Anyway, yeah of course I'm scared. I would be lying if I say I'm brave and I'm confident that many had had it and the risks are very low. I'm shivering inside, I just don't show it 'cuz hey! it's MINOR! 30 minutes and it's done. grrr... why am I so being negative?! I'm worried! Maybe it's the whole "putting-me-to-sleep" that's scary. I hate being not in control of things and not being able to know while I'm asleep. silly me! of course I don't see myself sleeping, has anyone have? weird!

It's the idea that I'd be put out of conscious while people I don't really know are around. Though it's a guaranteed 1st class hospital with celebrities and high profile people go to.heehee (thanks to my health card, I got access.) still... if only I could get around with it! I would.

hmmn... well, let's just pray things will work out fine and I'm sure you will all be there for me, in thoughts and in spirit. My husband and my mom will be there for me definitely! I'd never go to the hospital alone. NEVER.

ooopppsss. time to cut this short. I have a dinner with my hubby and our boss tonight! so... see ya later!

i can do it altogether.

It's really late and my husband is already dreaming ... I could tell ... *little snores* ... Anyway, I've been up doing what I did on my previous post ... finding stuff to put together like an inspiration board for an outfit? Well, I feel sooo different doing that, because I've always wanted to be someone that writes from the heart and writes her heart out loud! I just felt like cheating whenever I put those "blog fillers" up instead of writing a lengthy, narration of thoughts and wisdom learned for the day!

STILL, they are no nothings. I've spent hours and hours doing research and layouting. Boy! do I really intend on doing this? haha ... well, yes it's fun and I will be diverting my issues here and there and will be covering as many areas as I can with my idle weekend hands but busy "feels-like-being-creative" brain! Those "blog fillers" as I call them, will stay. I even think it keeps my blog busy b'cuz after I posted my "filler"... I still tend to write. oh wow. So I'm now pacing at 2 blogs a day! ... hmmnn... well, you know when inspiration hits you, it bursts! But when there is NOTHING out there that's worth a mention ... you sit for minutes and your fingers aren't typing away easily, that you hit backspace more than any other key! That's when my "blog-fillers" come in. I want to do feature stories of sorts, not limited to clothes and "make-up" ... what am I talking about? ... if my boss reads this, I'll be receiving odd looks like ... really? 5 years in Architecture plus 2 years apprenticehip and 4 years in cladding design for skyscraper and landmark buildings, for doing make-up? ...

...yeah ...

But I could do both! I could write my heart out and still do the fillers, I could do skyscraper and do make-up ... I could do separate things together without a problem. I could even read two novel books at the same time... one I keep in the "mini" library I had set up in the comfort room, which is very convenient 'bcuz I'm a reader while (you know, doing it) So, as often as I go to the CR I read pages and pages. Now, I'm in chapter 14 and is looking forward to doing my thing ... So I could read. see? it has health benefits!

Anyway, women ... we are masters of multi-tasking! We can be anything at anytime and manage.

of women, scandals and rights

This is not the media attention you want when you're a star and have a steady career going on in modeling and showbiz, neither while you're a private person and is pushed to fame for the wrong reasons.

Difficult times for these women, I wont name names anymore because they are already enduring the pain and shame of the scandals that they were in. You know how media could make or break you and how they're never sensitive about feelings and the real people behind those issues, all they stand for is the "juicy-ness" of the story, if it would sell or not. In fact, bad news is more of a good news to them! That's just the way it is and honestly, as a reader? I am for the controversy too while the news about the good and triumphs come second, say Feature Stories but not actually News.

Anyway, the story is about 3 videos that plagued the Internet for weeks now about a Cosmetic Surgeon that videotaped his "more-than-what-friends-do rendevous" with women from showbiz (a young sexy star, a print and TV ad model and a Brazilian model) without their knowledge. This already sounds criminal but since the law has yet to get updated by these type of violation involving videos and the internet, the only case that they could file is under the "Anti-violence against Women and their Children Act of 2004" quote:

"Sexual violence" refers to an act which is sexual in nature, committed against a woman or her child. It includes, but is not limited to:
rape, sexual harassment, acts of lasciviousness, treating a woman or her child as a sex object, making demeaning and sexually suggestive remarks, physically attacking the sexual parts of the victim’s body, forcing her/him to watch obscene publications and indecent shows or forcing the woman or her child to do indecent acts and/or make films thereof, forcing the wife and mistress/lover to live in the conjugal home or sleep together in the same room with the abuser;

However, out of shame and battered dignity two of these women wont show up. I bet they wont. The young sexy star is battling it out on her own, for she has appeared and filed cases already.

But what a mess!

Everyday on the news there is an update, like there are 11 more videos that'll surface and the other day, it's already 40 tapes! It's like an avalanche! Jeez! This guy is sick. To think that he doesn't look like it. He is young and good looking and rich with a brain to be a cosmetic surgeon. In fact, he's done liposuction among the rich and famous people and also building a career in modeling and showbiz himself, SO what is wrong with him? ...

hmmnn... well, my mind is telling me that there is NOTHING wrong with this guy. Seriously, there isn't, he will just use the alibi for being a "psychiatric case" to get away or get some sympathy or make an explanation for his behavior, BUT to me? haha ... what are you talking about? You are not sick my friend.

It's the bragging rights that you were after when you made these films and shared it with your frat mates! To have a line-up of beauty queens, startlets, singers, international models ... 'come on!!! Don't make fools out of us, 'cuz we know why.

I am just deeply sorry for those women, so sorry that it had happened. I just wish that there is a way that could undo everything. Nobody deserves to be treated like that, it's not just you and your trust that he violated, it's all womens' OR maybe it wasn't in his intention to share it to the public but it had leaked anyways ... so, you know, he still has to go by the law. So, I urge YOU to ... come out ... put covers on your faces or something, but do go out and file cases! The video will be out there your whole life, I tell you ... if YOUTUBE has deleted it, it'll come in many other forms! Like blog links, CDs, DVDs ... print ... anything! SO you better make a stand now and do something or regret that you let him get away with it.

Women. Know your rights and please be honest and true to your values.

Dear Mr. Alec Baldwin,

Let me take a few minutes of your time as I may be interrupting your search for a Mail-Order-Bride (as NO WOMAN capable of real love will ever consider having a serious relationship with you.) Honestly, I'm getting tired of having to fend our country against racial discrimination. Sooo, please all of you who are racist, DO GET TIRED NOW and stop! We already have enough problems on this planet, it's not you who helps out anyway so it's better that you shut up and do some traveling, see the world beyond your bubble-wrapped environment and before you open your mouth, THINK: "What did you do in your life that's so great anyway?"

It's not just about the Filipinos or the Russians that he made fun about, this Alec Baldwin guy at the David Letterman Show, but also about women. We are not objects that whenever you want kids we'd make babies for you! ...

god! I'm so sick of these kind of people. As I said, tired of having to listen to these irrational comments ... how many people have gone by doing things like this? Making comments about Filipinos like they ever know one! Teri Hatcher? Chip Tsao? ... You know what? Our pride is so bruised now that any apologies will no longer do much repair ...

One of our Senators here (an action movie star) yeah, hehe. Even made a comment that if ever this Alec Baldwin guy sets foot in the country he'd be literally be beaten and he'll probably throw the first punch! haha ... well ... I wont stop him ... No one I know would stop him. I think comments like these are beyond DIPLOMATIC settlements. You say trash, you get trash.

So, goodluck in your life Mr. Baldwin. You have thousands of other countries to go to anyway.

Yours Sincerely,

me