start talking. now.

It has been a while (again) ... and you know when I've been gone for long and I suddenly just pop out of nowhere, there is something going on that I need to tell or I'll ... quit life and live in solitude and start building an attic for that.

For months and months I've been gone, busy with life matters, gym (I'm still in the gym...wehehe) work and friends. I kept my Sassy Blog in mind and always try to save as much of my experiences in my head to tell someday. But lately, I have something really important to tell and it can't wait.

I'm quitting my JOB.

I'm basically going to be jobless that's all. :)

I think, it's about time. For a change. I've been working for this company since I was out of College, this is my first job and I'm very, very comfortable in it. There's nothing wrong with comfort, it is steady and assured. BUT we all know, when we are too comfortable like in our own homes and family, we tend to slack. AND yeah, before that happens, I want to go out there and explore.

Don't tell my boss but I have a back up plan figured out. I wanna continue working in the same field of buildings, architecture and geometry but this time, I wanna make it into a CAREER. Surprised? What was I doing working if it's not a career? It wasn't.

It's a multi-million dollar and euro skyscrapers that I get my hands on and consider as a "learning" field. It happens. Sometimes, we have to take part into something that is very relevant into someone's business but you're just there soaking up like a sponge.


I wasn't MVP, I was a bench player, I wasn't a STAR, I was in some far out galaxy that's not in the picture for NASA, I was a swaying willow tree background in a show where the spotlight only hits me by accident. That's me at work.

That's what you get for being young and fresh and you do your first job. Some are born ready by age 1. Well, I wasn't. I'm a SPONGE and I'm ready to drain. I'm ready to give my all and SHINE.

I need to go. I need to GO now! or it's NEVER.

happy-nings

I've been out of the circuit for like god knows when and I haven't written anything in those times...sigh...yes, it's work. That's all I do with my time if I'm not blogging I'm at work!

Anyway, here's some good news...though I had missed it, The Katy Perry - "all for charity" concert, I still wanna share with you what this lovely lady and the band "Journey" did for my countrymen...(sounding very patriotic...eherm...) They did a concert with their entire net profit going to the Philippine National Red Cross for the typhoon victims! Brilliant, she is such a sweetheart, I never thought she'd care like that...knowing that she has that "diva-ish" flair about her in Hollywood, but she did and it was a hush.hush. she didn't gave that much interview about what she did and just showed up in a very dressed-down, ready to get to work attitude! But who can escape the press when you're someone like Katy Perry, so at least she got to promote the concert she was doing for charity by having that kind of exposure at the relief centers, where she handed down some supplies for the people. I like HERRRRR!^^ That's so nice of her...and after the concert she went clubbing and my friends were there to party with her while I....with my stupid schedule, was at WORK.

here are some clips:



^^ Thanks for dropping by, I swear I missed you!

xoxo
Sassy.

work place.

Hello! it's been a while I know!^^ and I've lost ONE follower in the process of being too busy to sit and write! Well, good bye and good luck on your new destination...I'll FIND you someday, I swear I will!!! :)

Anyway, it's great, I've been great at work that everyday my boss gives me a deadline! He is soooo crazy to do that but still he does, I guess we needed that building project really bad, that much bad that we have to work even on weekends just to finish the drawings for the bidding next Monday...whew.

Well, that could really bore you if you're not into construction and wants to hear about love, life and fashion...oh well, me too! I'm dying to get LIFE! I want to escape my world of numbers and straight lines for a while and go find happy people in happy places!

Because "apparently" my workplace is kinda boring...

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~'happy week everyone!

Love,

Sassy.

Snapshots: Tokyo - Part 2- people and places

wedding march

bride

wedding guests

wedding procession around the temple

don't mind the camera guy!

glimpse


temple

wine for the gods

Spiderman's view

tombstones

obviously Japanese!

Tokyo lights

Cityscape Tokyo Tower ^^

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credits:

Husband

Japan

a day in the life of me.

So there I was in my most unflattering look for the site...literally clothed not "dressed" like a guy...I cannot be in my posh-iest outfit as you know being in a construction site is not the most glamorous thing! BUT, after this "technical" stuff, we will all go back to this same site for viewing in business outfits as if this never happened!

a gloomy rainy day to make things become a bigger challenge...mud on my shoes, mud on my shirt...err, *hubby's* shirt, and mud on my pants...
my boss and I,discussing numbers and halves of numbers, the panels were perfectly aligned at this stage, bravo! ... I'm still wondering at that time how I was able to climb up the scaffolding when it's slippery and I'm too coward for heights!
with my team mate doing some affirmations...he's a good guy, easy to work with, never complains and talks in a low-soft voice, who wouldn't like that! He never argues with me!^^

view of the unfinished product! It's a mock-up of what the actual facade of the building will look like.
some notes from the big boss!

...AND wrap up! Bring on the next day! :)

"here they come the beautiful ones!"

We were all cheers and smiles, showing support and waving our flag ... but nah! we are not the MOST beautiful people in the entire UNIVERSE! If we are to base that on the recently ended MISS UNIVERSE 2009 pageant, we are NOT! We lost again to Venezuela, I'm not surprised ... they always win! Well, we should start breeding our own league of potential beauty queens because that's what they do, BREED them. It's like the Olympics, they train beauty queens with rigorous routine in lipstick and heels! BUT the rest of it actually lies on the GENES, how can you grow a neck like that?! A gorgeous long neck ... that even SCIENCE cannot meddle with ... (in photos, TOP: Ms. Philippines 2009, Bianca Manalo, BELOW: Ms. Universe 2009, Ms. Venezuela)

ME: oh you don't say! get outta here! really?!!!!

MY SMARTER BRAIN: I read that somewhere you could wear a steel neck brace that will eventually elongate your neck ... a tribe in Thailand does that (to the extremes!) That if they remove the coil on their necks they could die because it's already far stretched! yikes!

The price of beauty as long necks are deemed elegant and graceful...I don't know when will mine grow! ... but I'm waitiiiing. ^^

...And what about that RIB reduction, where they take out 2 of your lower ribs so your body shape will always be smaller on the waist ... (excuse me, but I'm gonna pass out for a while ... haaaayy...) I heard Thalia, the famous Mexican actress, who's now married to Mariah Carey's Ex- have had that surgery... (I'm passing out again ... haaaayy...) if that's true.

STOP ... it's not to say that in order to be beautiful you must go under these "extremes" ... as I believe that "no woman is ever ugly, but there are just the "lazy" ones"! ^^ ...yeah... true. Forget those "effortlessly" beautiful women with good genes, they are NOT human!!! ^^

It's just a beauty contest. Anyway we've had our share of glory in the Miss Universe pageant having 2 winners in the past (in black and white photos!!!) and the first ever Miss Universe from Finland married a Filipino guy, that should count!!! ... I don't even know why I watch pageants, somehow - maybe, my mom wished one of her daughters could be among those "flawlessly" looking girls in the pageant... until I discovered the JOY of tree climbing and bikes that squashed her secret dream of a beauty queen/daughter!!! haha... and that I refused to join a pageant once in College, *wink*wink* because I'm a "rocker" chick, not actually the kind who's gonna strut in a bikini and showcase her talent just to show she's got talent, how'd you showcase a talent in GARDENING in 15 mins.??? So I gave way to the "girl" who'll do anything just to get in, bleach herself and all! ... It's NOT my thing... people have their own THING, that's not mine. I still like watching pageants though, nevermind why ... it's just so. (in photos, TOP: Gloria Diaz, Miss Universe 1969, BOTTOM: Margie Moran, Miss Universe, 1973)

Anyway, Melody Gersbach will represent us in the Miss International ... I have high hopes on her, she's pretty, smart and elegant. She comes from the same city I came from (I'm biased!) Was a graduate of a private Catholic School in highschool where my sister is teaching and she owns a popular restaurant in the City, she is a young business woman, I like her. (I'm biased!) ... Reminds me of what I read "again" ... That before, pageant candidates are chosen ONLY among the richest and born to prominent families, you must belong to the "high" class society to be Miss Universe Philippines ... aawww... I wouldn't be Miss Philippines now or even before!!! (but I don't want it, really I dont!)



Sooo, yeah...we lost. No big deal, we can try again next year and the coming years! ... Pageants are very different in each coutnry, we just consider ours as the most dramatic and the "serious" kind, that we love to see beautiful women to be "perfect" ... to be super smart and successful, to the point of having ridiculous expectations! To answer in perfect english, must have a flawless body but without having a surgery! To be super smart like Summa Cum Laude smart!!! Our 2007 Miss Philippines is a Summa Cum Laude from one of the top Universities in the country, ridiculous! i hate her! ^^

well... spread the love, goodwill and beauty. There's no harm in being beautiful inside and out! Remember, there are no ugly women there are just lazy ones!

oh happy days!

The light of day just happened for me! ^^ I'm now back to being a lover of life... that was fast?! I was just fuming mad hours ago and now, I'm a huggablle-lovable care bear! Well, human as we are, we're complicated ... woman as I am, I'm far more complicated. I now truly believe that we are tweaked in a certain way that we cannot really contest among men. We're all goddesses ... it's our right to be. Excuse my hormones but that just did those whining rant on my previous posts, it wasn't entirely me, it's my evil side...har.har. I have an evil side and if I have it, every woman with hormones has one! be afraid now. We go berzerk! ^^ kidding. Well, moments like these happen when I just hate some people for their guts, when there are also times when I like people with guts! Depends on what time of the day you caught me ... just don't, when it's around 3 pm because that's when I'm running autopilot, my brain is half asleep, especially at non-busy times like now...

But things are looking up, I'm now working on a layout, a revision. I recently got installed with Autocad 2008, it's ancient for some who has been using it for more than a year, like my husband who laughs at me whenever I use the COPY command and I click away, because when you do and doesn't need those lot, it makes copies over and over! ^^ I have to practice, I'm a lover of all things old and conventional but yes, I will try. I like the way it zooms in and out in 2008 so that's a good sign that I'm moving on forward to Autocad 2008!

So cheers to a happy life!

things will get better ... you'll see.^^

yup I need to relax... breathe MJ, breathe... it's not that bad (it's very bad! ^^) but yeah, I'm calming my senses, I'd be doing crochet and stitch those stresses in those patterns, I already bought lots of yarns and rolled them into balls, maybe something pretty will come out of it, maybe a mean scarf or a pair of mittens after all whenever I feel down and out ... something good and creative comes out of me, way better than I want to think it to be... when will I use those mittens here in my tropical country ... is a problem to be solved later!!!

Well, well ... yes, stress. I don't know why I'm stressed for not having the "same" amount of work as I'm used to. I should be happy and take these moments as "breathing-space" moments, when I get paid for doing ... well ... my desk is uncluttered for days, that says so much about how busy my schedule is! I've put up a fan page for our office on facebook, I guess that counts as work too, wont it?


I should not take it personally, I am friends with my boss, we were together in a team to the US and had those really good bonding moments, teaching me how to park without scratching the neighbor's car as I'm used to wide spaced parking lots but there, we have to park inches apart which ... I'm so not doing regularly, because I swear I could hit both cars on my left and right really goooood! Making those insurances cry!


But that was before I am under his team now. Which causes strain to our friendship. I really want to be his friend, as much as he is to my husband and among other friends. But we "cannot" ... it's true what they say, I used to NOT believe that we should avoid working with our friends, our spouse or relative but now I know why. It's really hard to not get personal when your working habits is not in the same level, or if your understanding of the work is not the same ... it gets personal. That's why ... yeah, maybe we could put our friendship past this project. I know, 'sounds stupid ... it's doesn't seem like REAL friendship but I do believe we cannot BUILD real friendships at the work especially with your boss anymore ... "COULD" but not for me now. It's not the same. Friendships are hurt by work, though I'm not sure if it would really hurt to my marriage if I happen to work with my husband ... but a strong part of me says it WONT. We're a team, we've always been!

anyway, complaining wont make it any better, filing a descrimination case would make it worse than losing the friendship itself... (I wasn't serious at that thought!) So I sit here, fiddle with my pens, write e-mails to friends, rationalizing, munching on snacks for the -nth time, totter back and forth the hallway feeling the weight of "uselessness" on my favorite choco brown flats ... why would I even care wearing my best? Doing my eyeliner for 10 minutes when the only exposure I get is when getting a print out of the printer!!! No meetings, no discussions, lousy, lousy walk to the printer and that's it... dread.

Oh well, I might as well buy more yarns, you can never get enough yarns to make you happy! ^^

BIG GIRLS DON"T CRY....they wail!

ok no more patronizing looks, I'm fine. It's not enough that I wasn't invited for the site visit yesterday that I'm not invited too for the meeting this morning. I'm soooo not liking this. I will charge them with sexual discrimination eventually, if the reason why I can't go to the site is because I'm a WOMAN and my boss doesn't want those stares when I walk in. That really makes me mad now ... I didn't make those drawings so others could read them for me, I am a MATCH for these guys and they just wont let me get the same opportunity just because I'm a GIRL??? WTF. Well, that's how far I'm reading it ... for as long as I've been working in this industry that they always give me the "girly" things to do whenever there's a choice between a technical drawing and typing on an excel file, they'd give me the "typing" on the excel file and the guy who's in level with me gets the drawing ... why??? just because I'm a GIRL???!!! I don't want "comforts!" if it means that I wont be able to prove myself. I'm not perfect, I'm not the best ... but don't magnify my mistakes just because "again" I'm a GIRL! and they don't expect us to be technical! WOW. 5 years in the Design and Engineering Department, I've been to Italy, the US and Thailand doing what I do (technical stuff) and here? Now? this comes up?!!! Why??? oh why???!!! I'm not perfect, I'm not the best, but I'm NOT STUPID, I know what you're trying to do ... but I won't let you!

>>my girl Cyril<<

the girl @ the center in Stripes is Cyril @ my wedding. 'You go girl!

We're letting her pack her belongings and bid us all goodbye, we're NOT stopping her at all. GO! NOW!

She's young, smart and beautiful, it's just so right for her to seize every opportunity that comes her way, and so she will, starting off in Singapore. One of our structural engineers at 23, she's got a bright future ahead having that ambition and confidence, she will go far! I think it's also the independence that she seeks if not the most ... as you know here,it's not usual to go independent even if you're earning your own money for as long as you are not married and you work within the same city you grew up in, living with your parents is highly acceptable EVEN when you're forty!

So yes! As a supporter for indepedence and independent women, I agree with her going for her dreams and taking on new challenges in life. I myself have left home for work in a BIGGER CITY, already 24 that time but still got a chance to be independent with my money, my time and decisions. I do miss my parents and siblings a lot, especially dad's cooking but you see it makes us better as a person in many ways, to be by ourselves and tend to our own needs ... while "of course" whenever I want, I can go visit my home town and stay with my parents. It's a Miley Cyrus song, "you get the Best of Both Worlds..." ^^

So now, I can only wish my girl Cyril the best, she's got what it takes to make it BIG wherever she goes! We're all happy for her.^^

back on track!

Yesterday was pretty much a good day, I promised myself focus and I had that all throughout the day, I was nothing but work. That's how it's supposed to be isn't it? When you are at work, be at work! ... yeah, what a sad life we all live in this world. Money matters and that's how it's gonna be. We cannot say that it isn't important, because it is. We cannot really live without it in all honesty. If I want to go on a vacation to relax and have that wonderful spa treatment, what does it take to have that? MONEY. Yes. Now I sound like a real gold digger here!!! grr. But, that's the truth ... DESPITE all of the goodness in me, despite all of the wonderful things I appreciate for being free ... I still wish for more "financial blessing". That's not bad to ask, I'm the most frugal person you may know for keeping unspent daily budget in an old ice cream can, so you see what tough time we're all having when a very frugal person like me asks for more money! That when I spent 900+ pesos for a bottle of vitamins yesterday I was already cursing the government! Why on earth did they spent $20,000 for a dinner at Le Cirque in New York?!!! While I wonder how'd that taste?! I paid for my vitamins anyway.

These are the tough times ... and though I know and I understand that we cannot let the President and our representatives who visited Obama last week eat dinner at Mc Donalds, $20,000 or 1 million pesos in our currency be spent that easy. I'd probably choke on that tiny-little serving of "whatever they ate" in that upper east side of Manhattan restaurant! You know how tiny the servings are in those fancy, dim lit restaurants, with names you can't even say properly on the menu but turns out to be a snail dish or something you'd never eat if it wasn't deemed "high-end". ugh.

I bet, if the former lady President we buried last wednesday with such high reverie were alive today? She'd be on the media looking so disappointed and with a gentle motherly voice she'd say " you disgust me" . THAT should make them shiver.

^^

some drama

...and so I'm back from outer space ... na na na na na.... i don't know the rest of the lyrics so leave it! I was really trying to make time but my schedule has been sooo crazy for the past week that I was holding my thoughts up to the brim that it's starting to spill a few that some colleagues have noticed me talking too fast with so many things to say ... arrgh. I know, it's usually either I talk too much or my fingers type fast. I wont pretend to be a quiet, graceful, quiet, gentle, quiet being because I'm not. I get tired too... AND I know, my work has been lousy... I'm slacking off a bit ... a LOT last week... I dunno... I'm burned out. I'm tired, but needs to work. Somehow, inspiration hasn't hit me like it usually does whenever a new project comes up... that I get excited and wants to work on it and see the project through. But this time, I don't know. This is our very first in my country, in the nearby city ... I should take pride on working on it but ... tsk. I literally have to drag my feet to work...

I'm not a good example to live by for now. Because I've misplaced my usual energetic, driven self. sorry.

you 'gotta give this a CHANCE. part II

If you enjoyed part 1, you must see part 2. Yeah, they had some Filipino songs in them, but see, there's a subtitle ... music anyways has NO boundaries, it could be Japanese and I still sing 'em while researching for the English translation afterwards, yeah, I do that. I sing to Utada Hikaru's songs and I don't even know how she exactly means it but I got the phrasing really good, so ... yes, why not?

here's PART 2: (raw talent on a noontime show, coming up!)



Thanks for watching! ^^

xoxo

you 'gotta give this a CHANCE. part I

Everybody knows Wowowee ... I know Wowowee, you know Wowowee! We know Wowowee! ...

Ok, so NO. But if you have Filipino friends or you're A Filipino, you surely have heard of this popular noontime show that has appealed to the masses BIG TIME! Especially showcasing raw talent from all walks of life (usually with heartbreaking stories ...*sob*) in their segments like the "Willie of Fortune", where contestants must show their talent before the actual game, and in this video are just some of the featured talents for the day that has come by the studio to try their lack on the jackpot prize.

Very entertaining, very real (guard your emotions!), lots of singing (two-parts!) apparently, that was the category for that particular day :" That you must have won an amateur singing contest and a teen." So enough said come let's watch...

PART 1



Hope you enjoyed!

xoxo

Prologue

'Said I'd do words for people and then try to work on a list about who matters into my life and why ... apparently that list is not happening. I think I'm gonna write freehand. I think it's more sincere that way that I let my emotions go whenever the person comes to mind. Kinda like a psychiatric evaluation ... using a flashcard of faces and my reaction is taken on record... hmmnn.. ahaha...

No...actually, I wanna do it for the purpose of reminding me how somebody touches my life. As we all know relationships come and go as we journey through experiences influenced by good and bad people. It's as important as events, hobbies and lifestyle. So to start, I wanna take mention of a person ...aarrghhh... why is my brain teasing me of mentioning our President and her boob job??? That is NOT a world issue people!!! Get it off the papers and television!!! NOW.

whew jeez. I'm really just trying to make mention of a person who treated us to dinner last night.

Conversations on a Monday

When I woke up this morning I said to myself that I should sleep early next time, so I wont feel washed out everytime I wake up! I said that too yesterday and it's bad enough that it's a Monday morning and I was up 'till 2:45 a.m. (not cool.) So my husband goes:

-What did I tell you about sleeping so late?

and I go,

-Well...

Trying to make sensible reasons in my head ...

-Well... if you have done the dishes last night I could have written my blog earlier, surfed through facebook and launched all the applications I've signed up to.

He looked at me as if I was talking Martian.

-OOPPSS...

Realizing that it wasn't the smartest thing to say, I beamed a toothy smile at him ...

It was really my turn to do some chores yesterday but I just wanted to see if I can get away with it. Who knows, he sometimes let me! hmmppff ... yep, my head feels floating and my eyes dry and heavy...

"Who ever invented Mondays?!"

"But you know what? I can live with TWO mondays in a week!" I said while opening the windows to a bright Monday morning.

"... just make all the other days Saturday!"

My husband chuckled.

"...and who ever invented work?"

as my brain automatically processes informative reasons that we need to work even if I was thinking of how good life must be if there are no companies to work for and we all just have to TRADE in goods like sweet potatoes or something ... my brain asks:

"...and where will the sweet potatoes come from?"

-"argghh. I still need to farm them."

-"Farm what?" husband confused.

-"the sweet potatoes." as I scrabble the closet for what to wear.

Then my life with computers and buildings are better than farming the sweet potatoes I was hoping to barter. Farming is a tough job, I would've loved to farm if it will be shady all day! Since, I love earth, the smell of earth, the smell of wet grass, collecting slimy worms, to see sprouts ... the closest thing I came up with here in our city apartment is owning 3 potted plants that stand on the bathroom window... how sad. I wish I could have more ... but I give those little greens all the love they need. I sprinkle them water everyday making sure that their soil is just the perfect moist and placing them back on the window sill to get enough sunlight. (There goes my farming skills) ...

I did my stretch, I watched my morning show, took my shower, dressed for work and did my make up ... husband ... waiting.

We grabbed coffee and off to work.

If ever you wonder how I make it through the day without sleeping/drooling all over my desk at work, I listen to this station check it out, they have the coolest people on board: magic 89.9

ciao!

losing the spark

'Taking breaks from the blogging world was not my idea (promise!) It's my works' idea of keeping me off the net while I work overtime, finishing up on drawings for a visual mock-up (in layman's term: ... ) err ... why do I lose words when translating a technical term into basic?!!! uhmm ...because it's probably gonna bore you! haha WELL, it's a simulation in scaled proportion of how the cladding of glass or aluminum will actually look based on the Architect's design... and we have to work really fast on it, given the deadlines and the manufacturing that's coming all the way from China. (boring.)

Anyway, yes there are many thoughts that plagued my mind throughout the time that I wasn't writing...I had a thought of becoming a radio DJ ... haha yes!!! I want to be that, I'd quit my job (for the -nth time!) I was saying I'm gonna quit my job to do make-up! haha now, I wanna quit it to be a DJ ... the one that talks non-stop on the radio about things and it's like a "one-way" conversation most of the time, which is good 'cuz don't want anyone arguing with me especially when I'm dead tired! I just wanna be quiet and left alone in a corner while my brain processes these thoughts of becoming a DJ! WOW, it just dawned on me ... I'm being bored to death by what I'm doing for a living ... I used to be sooo inlove with it BUT now, I just lost the magic. hmmnn...maybe it's really time to change careers! haha (stupid idea) now that the world is in financial crisis and people are losing jobs, I'm quitting mine 'cuz I'm bored! (how proud of me!) Well, that's just the whole point of it ... I'm staying in my job because it pays ... pays well! BUT if my heart would wanna work ... I'd like to be on the "creative" side of work ... NOT in some technical-number precised-work. I'm exhausted ... that's all.

Maybe that's what it is. I'm just tired today, maybe I wont be a DJ. Maybe I wont be anywhere near the "creative" side of jobs, maybe I'll grow old and retire doing these straight lines, perfect ellipses, perfect circles ... skyscrapers can be boring ... like this. =(

how sad that I lost the magic.

i can do it altogether.

It's really late and my husband is already dreaming ... I could tell ... *little snores* ... Anyway, I've been up doing what I did on my previous post ... finding stuff to put together like an inspiration board for an outfit? Well, I feel sooo different doing that, because I've always wanted to be someone that writes from the heart and writes her heart out loud! I just felt like cheating whenever I put those "blog fillers" up instead of writing a lengthy, narration of thoughts and wisdom learned for the day!

STILL, they are no nothings. I've spent hours and hours doing research and layouting. Boy! do I really intend on doing this? haha ... well, yes it's fun and I will be diverting my issues here and there and will be covering as many areas as I can with my idle weekend hands but busy "feels-like-being-creative" brain! Those "blog fillers" as I call them, will stay. I even think it keeps my blog busy b'cuz after I posted my "filler"... I still tend to write. oh wow. So I'm now pacing at 2 blogs a day! ... hmmnn... well, you know when inspiration hits you, it bursts! But when there is NOTHING out there that's worth a mention ... you sit for minutes and your fingers aren't typing away easily, that you hit backspace more than any other key! That's when my "blog-fillers" come in. I want to do feature stories of sorts, not limited to clothes and "make-up" ... what am I talking about? ... if my boss reads this, I'll be receiving odd looks like ... really? 5 years in Architecture plus 2 years apprenticehip and 4 years in cladding design for skyscraper and landmark buildings, for doing make-up? ...

...yeah ...

But I could do both! I could write my heart out and still do the fillers, I could do skyscraper and do make-up ... I could do separate things together without a problem. I could even read two novel books at the same time... one I keep in the "mini" library I had set up in the comfort room, which is very convenient 'bcuz I'm a reader while (you know, doing it) So, as often as I go to the CR I read pages and pages. Now, I'm in chapter 14 and is looking forward to doing my thing ... So I could read. see? it has health benefits!

Anyway, women ... we are masters of multi-tasking! We can be anything at anytime and manage.

I'm dropping skyscrapers to do make-up

Afterall, there are more people who can do buildings than making themselves look good... I mean look good with make-up! I've now reached a point in my life where I have developed wants, passions and hobbies. I think I could do it all, right? If I wanted to? ... That, I may be over with pursuing a career on something that I thought I love but now is just a job ... I now have it ... The climb is steady and its already here ... It's just up to my boss if he really wants to make me into something, because right now, I have been working so hard for 4 years, did the "bubbly-yeah-I-can-do-anything-you-practically-throw-at-me-stuff" that I'm now left exhausted and yes! I still wanted that promotion you gave away to someone who you think is better than me! ... really? Of course I'd disagree, but ...whatever, you know. I'm just easing up a bit more and once this global financial crisis is over, I'd be out the door the minute it happens! Husband in tow.

... but what I want to write about actually is having some goals after your goals.

I have listed 5 things that I want to continue doing and 5 things that I want to learn about.

Here's the 5 "I want to continue doing" list:

1. Do painting, sketching and crafts more.

2. Do go back into dancing and running.

3. Do continue my Italian language lessons!

4. Do go back into business. (used to run a food business and school supplies, NOW I want clothing and shoes)

5. Do go out more ... travel, swimming, picnic ... long walks and driving.

And here's my "I want to learn about" list:

1. Doing make-up professionally. I want to be a make-up artist.
I don't know anything yet about make-up but soon I will!!!

2. How to cook. I mean, really COOK!

3. Photography and Graphic Design.

4. YOGA!

5. Becoming a vegetarian!

Some are long term goals, but most are things I could do right away! I already feel better just by listing things down. Maybe because, it makes me realize that I have options or things for me beyond work and being a wife. It is never too late to be something or someone! You could be 60 and become an actress! ... I could still learn the guitar or become an astronaut! ... ok ... probably not an astronaut ... but who knows, I could be that too, so I wrote it down!!!

Anyway, have goals after goals and after goals. That is what life is all about. You only stop dreaming when you're on to sleep forever!!! So good luck and weave those dreams of yours, NOW!

Wanting One of Our Own

husband and not our kid, =P

Today, I'm done with my old project, the construction is well underway, we were sent photos of the progress on site and by the looks of it ... it looks fine, everything seems to be flawless, how come when you're behind the scene you see all these flaws, as if things will never ever be put together, all the mails and questions and drawings sent back and forth, mayhem!!! Just mayhem. But when you see the progress photos and how the skyscraper is beginning to take its form, you see tranquility and beauty, as it stands tall and still, like a giant gem reaching for the sky!

aahh... the perfect words to describe the love for what I do. But LOVE + MONEY is better love though!

And as I write, options are popping in my head that I want to grab my husband and shake him off from sleep!

"Yes, I want to work outside the country for better pay!" That is now my answer. Though his question came way earlier today, that he pointed out his reasons and how it'll make things better for us and our "plan" to have a baby soon. We're hoping to save and invest and come home to a more comfortable life. Though our life now is as comfortable as we wanted it, we wanted to move on to the next phase, which is "making a family" and that! at these times, is not easy. We may be comfortable, being just the two of us, we may be happy by just being the two of us ... but you know, we wanted "offsprings" haha, those bundle of joys! Those little ones who celebrate birthdays that you'd bake cakes for. Those that you send to school and teach homework to... and those who makes you cringe by growing up so fast and now thinks on their own, they don't want to be dressed by you anymore! ... hmmn... will this go ugly if I continue? haha ... KIDS. We want 'em no matter what.

And so that thought of a better life (fast forward) in a greener pasture while were still young is OK. I think there's a lot more out there for us, if we step outside our comfort zones. If we try to look farther than what is being put in front of us and think not only for ourselves but for the future. We want a family and if we are moving slow, how far long should we wait to start one?