So this is just the 3rd day... 3rd day of my domestic solitude!!! and I feel like it's been weeks already if not years!!! I'm so missing Ramil right now, that after a day and yesterday I'm now giving up the idea that YES, I am able to be with myself and not panic! BUT, here I am... all panicky and seems helpless ... all that talk about independence is like a conversation with a friend who needs only affirmation on her beliefs and not reality!!!
Anyway, no matter how I need him, I can't have him near me in a snap, can I? So what's the use of all these, I'm scared, I'm alone and lonely drama... it's not going anywhere, unless I choose to not come home and be somewhere with people! The thing is, this is how it's gonna be ... come fear and isolation!
I'm lucky not to be feeling depressed, I'm lucky that I feel positive and supportive of my husband, who's doing this for his career and for us...That's what a wife should think in times like this, that's what a mature relationship is, being supportive of each other's career and growth!
God! I need you Ramil!!!
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