Great! I had been out for a while but now I'm back with a vengeance!harhar....well, I was caught up with work and nothing excites me other than that! (oh really?) naahh! It's just getting worse everyday that my numbers wont sum up properly! well, whatever!
Anyway, ever had or have a person in your life that creeps you out? ... but it's a creepy person that you can't just ignore or push away like you can avoid someone you see and talk to everyday because you have to be nice and give all that cheesy comments like "oh! how cute!" "how nice you got a new ...blah...blah" ... because you're just waiting for the right moment when you can actually just move on with your lives as "unique" individuals! Yeah, she creeps me out like having the same stuff that I have, hairstyle and what's major is she's sort-of patterning after my lifestyle ... uhmm... am just being neurotic here? or it's really happening?! Anyway, the bag! was the bottomline! If she hadn't bought the same brand, same style and same color and showed it to me! and I was like ... "oh! what a nice bag, I have the same one right here, see?!" and then I turned on my heel muttering "you bitch!" under my breath! (god! so sorry I had to) I would've forgiven her for everything that she thinks is all hers if it wasn't for the stupid bag!
Well, I'm not at all changing even if we have things in "common" though I'm struggling to keep my patience and tell myself that it's actually a flattery to be imitated, I'm sort of wondering what should I do whenever I have something and she always turns up with a story of the same thing and like even better! always! always! ... and did I just said always?!
Like I don't have any right to be better than her and her ideas and things which I never have to compare against her because I'm trying sooo hard to stay clear of her ... uhmm... ideas? style? choices? well, those!
hmnn... BUT! ya know what? hehe I'm not mad .. I just sound like it! ... I'm just baffled ... that now I try to relate so many things about her and me, ooh! we could be friends actually! haha for liking things together ... I'm just wondering if she ever really like the things that she bought or just to show me or ... well, we went shopping together one time and ... she bought everything I said was nice though there was a time in between our shopping that I tried to see if my wonderings are all real (or I was just making it all up in my head!) I gave her stupid choices and the poor thing just clutched everything I chose heading for the register ... but then I stopped her ... "you really don't need those huge pink plastic earrings ... cuz uhmm .... they are not in season!" she bought none of the stupid choices I made, don't worry...it was just a test. Like some Jedi master I am. The point is, whenever I go back to that ... moment? event? whatever, I just feel for her, like I'm not supposed to be mean at her, she could have some issues with herself which I should understand 'cuz the TEST somehow proved it. But then again, what will I do if she turns up everytime with things and stuff that I have, or even making decisions in her life that is necessary for me, but not for her! ... ever wonder what "patterned" lifestyle I mean? or "decisions in life" I mean? ... well, let's say I had a "birthday" party which I celebrated with hugeness! Like it was an event of the year for my friends, and her ... her birthday was like 6 mos. ago, what she did was to come up with a post birthday party, hugest and grandest than mine if possible! ...and she'll be wearing the same color of the gown I wore ... that is so sad to realize. But still I'm helping her out with planning and I give her tips (not stupid tips, dont worry!)hehe ... it's going to be expensive I bet, more expensive than mine! hmmphh ... if only she realize that she could do her birthday at least next year, so it wont be obvious!!!
oh well, things happen for a reason, maybe I've got a purpose with her... maybe I'm her ... what? I don't know what to do with her so I let her be.
HELP.
2 comments:
Wow..wierd things! I've seen this. My mother's cousin has done this her entire life, down to buying the same couch for her living room and painting her kitchen the same colour. It got to the point that my mother would have to "lie" to her(which was hard on my mother so she'd buy two outfits to make it true) about which outfit she was wearing to an event because she'd show up wearing the same thing. So she'd tell her I don't know. Be very careful about baby names...my mother told her another lie when naming me, they were pregnant the same time, but she was due first so she told her a "fake" favourite name for a girl that she had no intention of using..sure enough, she named her baby that! I got the name my mother had planned all along but only because my mother set her up.
Breeze
yikes!what's with these people?! oh yeah the baby names! I too have mentioned that if ever we get a girl someday I'd name her after my mom and my sister ... so she'd have two names, imagine me hearing her that she wants those names too! she even named her pet the name so I couldn't have them anymore! what's the names to her anyway?! it has no meaning to her, now I couldn't use it 'cuz she used it for a pet!!! grr...
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