Lose it!

So how do I get back in shape and be able to wear 80% of what's in my closet?! grr... so frustrating that I have gone really generous on food! ... yeah, the BUTs of it being delicious, nutritious and just because it's there, looking all yummy and "yes, I can do exercise and diet tomorrow!" excuses ... Which tomorrow however, I don't know! ... Marriage is sooo good that I was too comfortable to notice my weight! haha until I realize that I'm now running out of "wardrobe" options while preparing for work everyday. My husband tells me to plan ahead so we wont be running late, but that's not even the point. The point is, I could plan my whole outfit for the week, but the bad news is ... will it fit me?! I can't stand the times when I couldn't squeeze myself into something that I thought looks good on me. grr.

oohh! That's why I'm planning to give all those clothes away so I could fill my closet with NEW clothes in my NEW size. Good or Bad? BAAAD. Because I'm not that rich to pack my whole closet with new stuff and I have some sort of "emotional" attachment to the clothes I love, which makes me really mad at myself for not being able to fit into it anymore! I grew 2 sizes bigger. That's why. grr...

BUT, I'm not at all hard on myself about food and eating and not being able to be a size 0 ever!!! It's just my old self that I want and it's not easy to lose all these pounds because the more you get heavier that more you get lazy to lift a muscle. It's aging actually, that's doing all these metabolism mess I have. When before, I could eat whatever, whenever I want and it magically disappears! But now that I'm nearing 30 and have to work it out really hard just to see a tiny bit of progress! grr..

'Hope I get the inspiration to really lose it! 'cuz right now I'm just too happy to bother!